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Before I really suffer from heart attack, I just wanna complain that I'm hungry and I'm sick.

Not to gain sympathisms or people gloating over my mishap(s).

I just wanna complain and whine about everything like.. Me being hungry.

!#$%^&!#$%^&!#$%^&!#$%^&!#$%^&!#$%^&!#$%^&!#$%^&

!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&*

tuhhmorrow dhar tuhhmorrow skool reo0o0o0open oreadiiex.

How egg-citing. I'd rather die than t spend my holidays like this all over again. Hospital, home, hospital, home, hospital, home, hospital, home and getting sick like on the very last weekend of the holidays. Wow. So egg-citing. I really hope I'll never like spend any of my precious holidays like this ever again.


Mom gave me magic pill ystd. Made me bloody sleepy after bloody half an hour.

The skin on my nose/ nose area was fucking tearing/ pain/ red and pain x 1942304872897129312. To top everything off, I've been infected with crazy Mr. Cough.

!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*

!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*

!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*

!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*

!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*

!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*

!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*!#$%^&*

Angry! Angry!! Angry!!! Angry!!!!

Woke up super late with crazy cramps and I'm still feeling all-so-tired right now. But it's only bloody 10.04PM.

I am a pig.

I am a big pig.

I am a pig.

I am a fat pig.



Miss big fat pig suffered from sudden heart-attack.

Byebyebyebyebyebyebye.
And oh! Happy enjoying your last weekend of the holidays before you see the most disgusting classmate/ annoying teacher or before taking crazy many buses that takes eons t reach school :)))))))))))))

two thousand and nine

happy two thousand and nine. i dont like it. cause im starving, im deprived of sleep, im waiting for shuping/ darick to call me cause yanbing and i are meeting them.





am at yanbings place right now. her keyboard is alittle screwed. cant use shift and numbers. so if this entry looks abit screwed.. whatever.



oh. have i mentioned about me and my sister almost burning my whole house up?
me and my younger sister was baking cookies cause i wanted to bake cookies for everyone for christmas. but turn out, the oven was kinda screwed and big duh! i din know that theres smth wrong with the dumb oven and i still used it. the temperature of the oven is not stable and it took us like minutes to realise. but that few minutes cause the oven t turn colour, the whole kitchen very smoky and oh! plus the whole house and it stinks.



the cookies ended up burnt, black, smelly andd it sticks on the trays.
my mom is so gonna kill the both of us when she gets back home from hong kong.
and hunny buns, no more cookies for everyone.

Baooooo toooodayyyyyyy

Okiiee pookiee dookiiie.
It's like 2.35AM and I'm kinda hungry despite eating alot today and my eyelids are rather heavy.

It's been long since I last did a decent blogging, so I shall bear with the agony of NOT sleeping and resist the temptation of my bed. But have to say what I gotta say. That is, this post is rather boring. So hello and byebye..


Went out with Roxanne and Rachael on I dont know when after the hospital trip..

Ate hell lot too. Well okay, that explains my weight. I've put on like prolly 5kg of weight and I dont know how the hell can I put on such amount of weight for the past 3 weeks. Very scaryyyy. And I'm super depressed cause of the weight and I think that's causing me to gain more weight. I eat more.

She became best friend with the Hanger (I dont know what is it called) within a week. She's forever holding that thing and even when she's sleeping. She held that thing when she was sleeping and when she really relaxed her hand, she lost hold of it and hitted her own head. She woke up laughing together with me. Hahaha. Oh boy. I love youuu.

She took picture of my eye cause she said that it looks like peacock. What the fuck.

I DID HER HAIR. AHHAHAH. I am very proud. proud proud proud.

Anws, I was working on Monday for my little sister cause she was suppose to work but she didn't wanna work (bitch). Replaced for my little sister and went to Clark Q with her to collect the flyers. OH anws, it's a flyer giving job. I know, dumbbbbbb. Headed to Raffles to give flyers. BUTTTTT.. We threw all the 1000 pieces of flyers and had lunch at Bao Today(包今天). HAHAHHAH. Direct translation of 包今天 is Bao Today. Omg! Bill was 17.80$ and my heart ached. Which means to say I'm paid eating Bao Today. Hohoooo.

Ordered Mr. Ha Gao, Mr. BBQ pork and wanton noodle, Mr. Deep-Fried dumpling, Mr. Fried beancurd skin with shrimp. WOW.

I didn't know why did I ordered the BBQ Pork and wanton noodle when I dont even like pork. Irony rightZ? Yes I know.

Bao Today's awesomely big ha gao. Bloody awesome.

Headed to hospital to visit great-grandma after eating. Her cast on her leg was removed already and she can get down the bed just to sit on a chair so near her bed. Funny only.

Nurse goes to her with Ear thermometer.

Great-grandma: Who's calling?

*Ear thermometer in the ear already.

Great-grandma: No one's on the line.

She thought that the nurse was lying t her. Hahaha. Funny only again. Hahah.

Left the hospital around 7 and went to FEP and Cine. Caught Bedtime stories. Wasn't really what I expected it to be, but it's still funnyyyy.

In one more day time, it'll be 2009.

OH MY MOTHERFUCKING GOD.
Time passes so quickly this year and it's like I'll be bloody eighteen next year. I wasted so much time this year but I dont regret it. The people I got t know, that relationship I had, the ups and downs in my life, the choices I made and everything made it seems like it's only been yesterday instead of the whole year. Resolutions for next year? HA. That list might either be way too long or nothing. Why do I wanna set a new year resolution when I didn't achieved what I set this year? Or why do I wanna set a new year resolution when I cant even remember what it is?

Irony. Contradictions. Plain lazy to get my resolutions done. Cant remember.

Simple Plan's Save you is making me very sad.

Or maybe the picture of my great-grandma is the cause.

She needs to be hospitalise for 1 more month and another 1 more month in a rehabilitation centre to learn how to walk. Sometimes, at random time, I ask myself.. Is this how I spend my holidays? I pathetically spend my holis in the hospital in the day and at home to replenish my energy cause taking of her is very tiring. I hope someone can understand this..

An abrupt stop.

To be continued...

NOT.

It's 3.21AM now. Damn shiok!

Hmmm

I wonder, how many years will it take me to grow uber long hair..

I wish I'm alittle more feminine but I cant cause of that stupid huge lump inbetween my inner thighs that leaves me no choice but t stand while pee-ing :'(

WOOHOO

YAYNESS X 10 0000 AND ANOTHER 10 000 = 20 000 OF YAYNESS.

PARENTS GOING TO HONG KONG TMR IN THE MORNING AND THEY ARE GOING FOR ONE FREAKEN WEEK.

RELAX ONLY.

Okay thats it.

圣蛋节快了

我 WISH 你 MERRY CHRISTMAS.
( I didn't check the chinese dictionary, so even if I'm typed wrongly, just say I'm right)

I spent my Christmas eve over at Town with Yanbing and cliques and at Haji with Cherry and Kenny. Town was motherfucking crowded. Motherfuckers. I had people stepping on my flip flops, kicking/ splashing dirty water on my leg, stupid people's ash and smoke all over myself, had people at every angle around me, squeezing all over and I perspired like crazy.

Went over to Taka M.A.C to get the blusher but by the time I reached, it was already closed. Damn dumb. THENNNNN, had to squeeze with everybody again to Cine cause I was meeting Yanbing and them. Left them and headed to Haji Lane with Kenny and Cherry to drink. Took the Night Rider back home after drinking. Stupid 70 bus stops away from Marina Sq to my house was murderous enough.

& here I am, spending Christmas with my little sister, the 2 dogs at home. Oh boy do I love this year's Christmas. Well it is sure better that last year's, so okay la. Byebye. :)))))


AND VERY GOOD, the lip smackers I ordered online will not be sent to me anym.

But also very gooddd, refund :]

Okay, know what? GIVE UP.

There's no need for that stinking attitude.

Money money money. Its so funny. In a rich man's world

HAWHEEHAWHOOHAWHEEHAWHOOOO!!

Someone transferred 66bucks to my bank acc.

I dont know why did that someone transfer money to me. But still, thank you Mr. Anonymous. I'll love you.

Secretly, I think it's Santa Claus.

Dumb girl

I din know grapes are so expensive! Mom gave me 10bucks to get grapes for my great grandma cause great grandma wants it.

So yupp, with the 10bucks, I went to Cold Storage before heading to SGH. and big duh. I dont know how much grapes are, as in those that are seedless and comes with a box.[ I bet alot of people reading this dont even know tooooo] So I saw 79c. for this uber big box. My god was I happy cause mom said that I could keep the change. Bloody hell. I went to pay and it's 7.99 fucking dollars. But after thinking very long, then I realise that it's highly fucking impossible that it'll be 79c.
I shared this dumb issue to my younger sister and she said " 79c/ 100g.''

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

OMG. That was so embarrassing. I cant believe I got so super happy when I saw 79c and the thought of keeping 9bucks in my wallet. Stupid liar Cold Storage. Cheat innocent people who dont buy groceries them. Stupid maid chose t leave at this time, she come back. She die.


I feel dumb.

Omg. Laughhhhhhhhhhh.

Hmmm

CHRISTMAS ANOTHER 4 MORE DAYS.

HOW EXCITING.

ya right only.

Parts and parcels of life

I'm feeling very vexed, sad, unhappy, stressed, super unhappy, angry, pissed, mad and everything nasty you can name/think of.


I hate myself.

I need a smoke.



It's been long, isn't it?

Can we not play the game anym?

Twilight

I regretted watching Twilight cause Edward totally got me head over heels for him.

I hate but I love you Edward.

Coffe and cigerettes

I need anything, just anything that will give me immunity to heartbreaks.

:[

Off to hospital with new ugly hair.


Twilight tmr with my girls inclusive of Lee. Teehee.


Good-de bye.

Broken strings

NO MORE THIS HAIR. ME NOW GOT VERY UGLY HAIR!!

Hair ball

I'M GONNA CUT MY HAIR <3

Goodbye

My maid! She's gone! She's going home for who knows what reasons and will only be back ON Christmas! I know it well! She wants to leave the house so I can start learning how to do house chores. OMG. What am I suppose to do without her? I have to start :

1. Mopping.
2. Sweeping.
3. Cleaning up my own bed.
4. Washing the clothes.
5. Ironing.
6. Going to the market.
7. "Cooking"
8. Feeding the dogs.
9. Bringing the dogs down.
10. Clear up after my mess.
11. Wash our own undergarments.
12. NOT throwing things on the floor.
13. Waking up myself.

Even though I know how to do all these stuffs, I just dont like to do them. I know I know. It's hard not to be skeptic when I say I know how to do all of these. But know what? I just do.



Next year is like 3 weeks later.
This wasnt a very good year for me. I didn't like how I stupidly wasted all my time doing nothing and enjoying nothing. Not that I'm trying to say that my life this year spent is mundane, stupid, boring, lifeless, blue and horrible. I still had my happy periods, you know? But its just that after the happy periods, it all immediately crashed into something worth, ranting, mumbling, hating but still worth remembering for.


I know what I just said made no sense cause I dont understand too. In my heart, I secretly wanna thank alot of people who came into my life and just left without biding goodbye and to those who stayed and made my life somewhat happier and to this very particular someone, fuck off and die cause I hate you, but no, I dont think I do. I am not a petty bitch :]



I wanna fall in love with you. But I cant.

FRIENDSTER

I DELETED FRIENDSTER.

SUCK THAT.

d.e.a.f

Hey all. Before I turn either Temporary or Permanent deaf, I wanna say I love you all.



I swear I'm not joking.

HSO suck cock.

HSO today is only a big piece of shit. Studying yesterday over at Terminal3 was just rather fun cause we talked more nonsensical stuffs than the main topic, HSO. Burnt midnight oil just to freaken study so I can pass but nothing got into my brains. Studied on the way to school in the bus was also useless. Cause I was so fascinated by nothing. So duh! Rubbish was all what I written on the pieces of paper. Very good. Failllllllllllll.

I strayed from love. Dont pull me back.

Dont lead me to the path where deceptions once overtaked my life.

I wanna remain where I'm standing. Strong and for myself.

guilt

AiI NeBbeR ViIsi+ MoiI LaomAa To0o0o0dAy.

Suuhperr guiiltyy.

Thurs-bad-not-good-day.

This is a super big piece of shit day.

HATE IT.

Thanks. You made my darkest days seems so bright.

School's a bitch

Yo hey.

I dont know man. Christmas is three weeks later from today. & my Lip smackers I ordered online is arriving soon. Cant wait to lick it hard. Teehee.


I didn't enjoy last Christmas cause of the fucking stupid probation I had. So yupp, hopefully out with my bitches this year kicking bangalahs fucking black asses. But on the second thought, my great-grandma is there floating all around my head. Should I? Should I not? I dont know why the hell am I contemplating. Great-grandma is what that matters most now. Fuck. Go and die, Raphaelle. Go shove something like durian up ur nostrils and eat ur boogus.

But on many thoughts, Christmas is still pretty far away. But on super many thoughts, a blink of an eye, it's gonna be christmas.

Have been visiting great-grandma daily for exactly 1 week. All my energy has been drained by that stupid hospital. She still has to be hospitalised for quite some period of time. YAWNSSS.

But the empty room of my great-grandma's room's making me feel guilty.

"Have you ever thought of stealing, but ur conscious slapped the senses out of you? But did you know that by just the thought of it, even if u didn't steal anything. You're already a sinner. Dont worry, girl. Everyone's a sinner."

I know, I'm sorry.

My heart. It yearns. For you. So much. It aches.

hey ho

Hey yo.



Decided to visit great-grandma alittle later today. Visiting her will be my daily routine for the next 1 month. Bloody crazy. She's gonna be hospital for 1 month. Omg. The only thing on my mind is THE BILL.


That time I was hospitalised, the bill was high enough to buy one LV bag. Now imagine, 1 month.
Omg. I dont know how many bags already please.


Think I'm gonna skip tmr's visit to the hospital cause stupid thurs got school. Roarrrrrr. Meooowwww. Roooooooof.



Gotta leave.
ERRHHHHHHHH.
But to no where..

HOR HEE HOR HEE HOR-ITAL

Going over to the hospital now.

BUH BYExzxzxzxzxzxzx.

Hmph

Cause you're pathetic as he is.

& I think I'm not me.

Yuck

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:'(

Stayed over with Rachael to accompany great-grandma last night over at the hospital. Had to repeat more than 50 times to remind her that she's in the hospital. She has to be tied to the bed like one in the mental hospital, she got damn agitated. It was damn sad.


She kept saying things like..


"Ooi. Lets go to the room and sleep tgt. Dont sleep outside."
"I wanna go the kitchen's and pee"
"I WANNA SIT UP STRIGHT"

She said so many things, I just cant remember what. I dont wanna remember. That happened for more than 2 hours, answering her qustions and answering to her needs.
Me and my younger sister had no choice, we had to leave her to allow her to keep quiet and sleep, she has to be forced to take the medicine that will made her sleep, please.


" Ma(G-grandma), me and ahbao(younger sister) will go down first. Will come back later"
" Then me leh??", my great-grandma ask.



I kept quiet, I dont know what to tell her.



I left. After 20mins or so, I went back to check on her. I hear her calling for me " ah huiii. ah huiiiii." The guilt was so strong, I cried. I felt like I was the biggest asshole ever. I want her to know I'll be with her, but I cant.



When I was outside, many thoughts came to my mind.
What will happen to her?
Is her leg still alright?
How's the fucking stupid vest tied on t her and on the bed?
Who's helping her to massage her leg?
Who will be there to tend to all her needs?
Who can press the 'Emergency call' for nurses when she was to go to the toilet?
...

Bread for breakfast for her today.
Peeled the skin off and said she wants to feed the pigeons.
We told her that she's in the hospital, she asked WHO.
Told her what happened, she's like onlyyyyy "oooooh. Fall again?"



I dont think I can take it anym, I'll not be strong enough.
I am super deprived of sleep, I need sleep. But I cant help not worrying about her.

How?

My great grandma collasped yesterday. Just a blink of an eye, she's down on the floor. The fall was so loud, it stole all my attention. My heart and mind immediately got juggled up. I didn't know what to do.


When I saw a fresh pool of dark red blood on the floor, I screamed. Loud enough t allow anyone at home/ outside my house to hear and help me. My dad rushed out of the room, dailled 995. Got great grandma sitting straight, leaning her bac on the Tv console. The most 'WOW-ing' thing is that, she was still conscious after she fell.
She asked "what happend?" My heart immediately broke into so many pieces. She couldn't even remember she fell down & when she saw her blood on her hand... "Whose blood is it? Is it yours?" , she asked my little sister. My heart.. I couln't feel it heartbeat anym, i couldn't find it anym..



When my dad told her that the ambulance is on the way, she said she dont need it and she's fine. We know she dreads hospital the most but she doesn't have any other options.



Singapore General Hospital..
Waited for her outside A&E with such a heavy heart, trying to convince myself that she'll be fine. "its okay, everything is fine" I promise myself, but nth I told myself was reassuring me when I was her lying on the bed with this super huge blue black on the right face, the fall made her right eye so swollen that it didn't allow her to open up her right eye.


I know she's strong, i know, she is and will be. But what is her *WOW* God doing?! *Note the sacarsm* She prays so much with all her heart and is this what she gets in return? HA. That gives me another reason to not believe in god but to believe myself more.
I couldn't make the way she fall fade into the background, that moment carved si deepily in my heart was a fresh slap on my face. A well-deserved slap. I love her so long ago, but I realised it too late. I hated the fact that I was once so unfilial. I hated the fact that I cherished her too late. I hated the fact that she loved me the first day I was brought to Earth and I treated her so cold. I think its kinda late to show my love, but I want her to know I love her so much.

Please God, she's strong. She loves you so much, dont do this to her. The only thing I ask for from you is her to be alright. But no, I dont believe in you anym, I cant bring myself to believe in you.
BR>
Reached home like after 2 and couldn't even get to sleep cause all my mind was filled with those images of her wrinkled bruise face. My heart filled with regrets and guilt. What the griefing heart is feelling's just so overwhelming, I couldnt take it.. I broke down..

Sympathisms? I dont need that.
Friends? I dont need that.
Words from everyone telling me to cheer up? I dont need that.
I want my great grandma to be strong and healhty,

I knew I love her so long ago, but I was too arrogant to realise that.

Why? I should just die.

Self denial, Insanity, Self pitying

Have I come to a stage whereby losing my mind would be completely alright and normal?What was I thinking at that moment?Insanity must had taken place.

Wallowing in self-pity, living in denial.Decieving is not an option. It is what that has taken over my life.Shattering of the broken heart can still be heard.

Memories of us still exist and still so sky-blue-clear.But my heart no longer yearns for you.The smell of you still lingers, but I couldn’t picture you in my mind anym, even forcing doesn’t help.As the tears starts welling up in my eyes, the promises we made kept flashing thru my mind.As overwhelming as the heartache is, the tears slowly finds it way out and starts rolling down the cheek and touching the pale, chapped lips and coming t an end as it splatters down onto the ground.

It is hard t move on.Everyone doesn’t understand. Even if someone undergoes the same mental torments, they just wouldn’t understand. It sucks t feel different feelings. It sucks t bottle up all those mixed feelings and yet, not being able t tell anyone. Dont say you understand how it feels, cause I know you dont.

Everyone wants t love greatly, but experience made us afraid.

How true.

All the entries here are from PROMISE-METRAGEDIES.BLOGSPOT.COM. No new entries are over here.

Just read if not dont read.

I was reading someone's blog and I thought it was pretty interesting.


Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.


Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

/And while reading all this, someone was constantly on my mind.
& enlighten me, what does that mean?
Please tell me what we have is not real cause looking at you yet knowing that I cant have you, hurts.

T&G

Went over t Toni&Guy academy ystd tgt with half of the class.

Over t Haji lane when everything ended and reached home pretty early.

& yupp, I'm gna stay at home the whole day for today.
I love.


It's all back t a square one.

SIGHS

So i'm going t say smth damn cheena and twit and I swear I'll never write this again.





Xin shi shui nen zhi.

Suprisingly, my chinese is superb.
Nah, i dont even know how t write that in chinese.

Damn gross.

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
damn gross
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
my house got shit smell
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
damn bad
UchihaKanina Just One Minute says:
your dog shit somewher is it?
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
no.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
from downstairs
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
knn.
UchihaKanina Just One Minute says:
scold that whoever casue it larh
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
i think your mouth

*AFTER 10MINS OR SO*

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
okay
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
i found the shit
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FELL. WHY? says:
in my living room

A day at home

Finally I have time at home t do things that I've always wanted, like enjoy shitting at home, lying on the sofa watching some dumbass show t kill ALOT of time, slack in the tuuuilet for gazillion hours just t kill time while bathing, blog hop t some retards blog and time t do some 'real' blogging. All this excitement in a day is just making me so excited. I hope there'll be another day like this so I can mentally&physically kill myself. Too exciting, cannot take it.



Okay. BYEBYE.





No, just kidding.

'Ve been going out since Monday, no time t relac relac at home.

Monday out, tues out, wed out, thurs supposed t be out right now but IDK I'm at home and stuffs.


Towned ystd just t get one fucking stupid eyeshadow brush and met up with Yixiang and ate Mogu Mogu. Hohohoho. Went back t Yishun t meet Yanbing and we piah cab down t Northpoint just t catch Painted Skin.



I wanna watch House Bunny.

The emptiness within me is unbearable.

Motherfuck.

I sibeh retro.

Oh fuck.

I'm very 'busy'.

Hmph.

I find it absurd when I realise that I've forgotten how it feels t hold your hand or how we held our hands in the past.

It is so weird.

Too close for comfort

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand, you

told me you love me.

But now that I find you've changed your mind. I'm lost

for words.

What am I thinking, exactly.

What am I suppose t do upon knowing everything?

I'm standing at a crossroad where decision lies in me.

Tagged. You're it.

For a change.

I've been tagged by Elizababa Chinyasu t do this whatever-u-call-it-thingy la. Whatever.

And.. I dont have much friends, yet NAME 20. Where t find?!

Name 20 people you can think of:
(not in order)
1. Annabelle
2. Mingjie (cause she just appeared online)
3. Shuping
4. Kenny
5. Michelle
6. Nicholas

7. Izwan

8 Fadhli

9. Fazly

10. Tonglee
11. Rachael

12. Pearline

*enters blogosphere*

13. Yanbing

14. Shuling

15. Meiling
16. Shane

17. kelvinLEE
18. Rachael

19. Cherry

20. Leon

How did you meet 14? [ying]
Classmates. Didn't like her the first time I saw her.

What would you do if you have never met 1? [popo]
North view. Damn unlucky, yes I know.

What if 9 and 20 are fated? [Fazly and Leon]
Yo. I dont mind gays la.

Will 6 and 14 date? [Shuling and Nicholas.]
HAWHAWHAWHAWHAW. NO.

Describe 3. [sheryl]
One chocolate chip on her face. (MOLE)

Is 8 attractive? [anne]
He is. Super.

Describe 7. [IZWAN]
Always falling sick.

Do you know 12's family members? [Pearline]
YES. I know everyone. No, actually I dont at all.

What if 18 confesses that he/she likes you? [Rachael]
She's been confessing t me since the day she knows how t talk.

What language does 15 speak? [Meling]
Erh. This is the real ah-lian language.

Who is going out with 9? [Fazly]
Dont know, dont care.

How old is 16? [Shane]
15?

When did you last speak to 13? [Yanbing]
Ystd on the phone. We pueh taji. HAHAHHAHAHHA.

Who's 2's favourite singer? [Mingjie]
Erh, (must pretend I know) Secondhand serenade.

Would you date 4? [KEnny]

Wah. Of course la. So handsome.

Would you date 1? [Annabelle]
HAHHAHAHAHHA. Fuck. No.

Is 19 single? [Cherry]
I think so?

Whats 10's last name? [Tonglee]
ERH. Ah mao.

What is the school of 3? [Shuping]
Working.

Where does 6 live? [Nicholas]
Erh. Singapura.

What do you think of 5? [Michelle]
A bitch that I love.

Have you seen 2 naked? [Mingjiee]
Nope.


Choose 5 people to do the test:
Lee, cherry, yanbing, your mom and my mom.

Comache Moon

Where is my hatred? When I search for it, it isn't there. Just emptiness and sorrows that runs so deep it aches my bones.

Laoma

My laoma is hospitalised.
Omg. My heart sank.
"cherish the ones around/ beside you"
I wish I could understand that earlier.
I'm sorry, Laoma. I've treated you badly in the past.
My sins are unforgivable.

Why is it so?

After thinking about smth for days, I realise that whatever I did, was merely just an act of selfish-ness. I never know how much it hurts and I dont think I'll ever know or maybe, I chose not t know, just t run away silently from this curel world.


Putting up a brave front each and everytime I'm with anyone, but who really know how I feel? When someone need t pour their sorrows out, they come t me. Without knowing how much I've been thru keeping mum, bottling up all the feelings and emotions. Yet, adding on t it by whinning t me, asking me for solutions.


Y'know. Why me? I couldnt even solve the prolems that are just constantly running up t me, yet, having t solve others doesn't seem like the wisest thing t do right now. & who do I have for me to confide in when everyone starts coming t me? I have so much t say, yet no one's around.


I just wanna have enough courage t face everything, including you.



Love is an unstoppable and undesired need.Everything was just a part of my unrequitted love. Everything was just a game for you and you merely played along. Now that it's over, I'm no longer needed.That day, that week, that month. Everything felt so right but now..I'd rather remain silent and cry over my stupidity.


Sometimes, when the pain is too overwhelming for one t take it, the heart distegrates and falls into many pieces silently on the ground.

WAHLAO

WAHLAOOOO. YOU'RE VERY IRRITATING.

YAYNESS. JOB HUNTING WITH MY BITCHES TMR.

MAY LUCK BE WITH ME, US, YOU.

Wah. Cheebyee la.

I want sushi.

MY HAIR

I know I've been talking about my hair t practically everyone yet, few has seen my hair.

So yup, this is my hair. Whether you like it or not, whatever. I miss my previous hair badly.

Traumatized by it so badly, I couldn't get t sleep for that few days after I cut. I was my friend's manager's model for Jean Yip. I know how difficult was it t find a model, so yupp, I agreed being their model. Never did I regret but never did I not like it.

I didn't know how much I've hurt you.

When I think about you, there is this unknown guilt within me that is constantly telling me t do smth about it. Yet, I only stood still, shaking, pondering, not doing anything t help.

& as the tears starts welling up in my eyes, till then, did I only realise that being apologetic about it doesn't help us at all. I know we cant cry over spilled milk. But I hope that there'll be a solution.

Sorry, my friend.

I'm always lazy t blog.

*HINTS HINTS. * Okay, hints my ass.

I'm leaving.

Till then.

And before I leave..

My younger sister was baking cookies for her favourite teacher on teachers day and she made all Heart-shaped cookies for him.

So my maid..

MAID: RAPHAELLE. WHY DONT WANT TO MAKE LOVE WITH UR TEACHER LIKE RACHAEL LIKETHAT?!!!

MAKE LOVE??

OH FUCK FUCK FUCK

I finally fixed the computer MYSELF.
And now my external memory whatever doesn't seem t be working.
Thousands of photos are inside.
I reformat my com. Pictures gone, music gone, softawares gone, everything gone.
FUCK.

WOOPS.

OH FUCK.

SOMEONE KNOWS MY DIRTY LITTLE SECRET.

HAHAHAHHAHA

FLOOR VERY DIRTY.

AND LAONIANG ME WANNA SIT.

ME: YIXIANG! HELP ME BLOW.

BLOW ALL THE ASH AWAY, I MEAN.

oh mee gosh

My mind is swirling.

I have t make choices in order t move on.

But how do I know what choices t make?

All I know is that, I need some sleep.

My hair is very short.

LL.

HATING LIFE AS IT IS.

Even though it is still pointless but I carried on doing so.

My heart is all numbed from everything.

Why is my empty heart filled with love once again?

LEE AH LEE!

When I wanted t relax one cornor and watch some Tv programs, I blog hopped t KelvinLee's blog and saw my name in the Must Do Quiz Or You Die Like KNNB CCB PIG.

So yupp, I scared. I now do.

RELATIONSHIP QUIZ
1. Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirt ?
- Single.

2. Are you happy with that ?
- Erh, maybe?

3. Would you still kiss your ex ?
-noooo?

4. Have you ever had your heart broken ?
-woahhhh. a million, billions, zillions times. :D

5. Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok ?
-It is definitely Okayy.

6. Have you ever talked about marriage ?
- Too young.

7. Do you want children ?
- uh huh.

8. How many ?
- 2? one ah kua; trans, another one natural born witj lanjiaoxZx and nehneh.

9. If someone like you right now, would you want them to tell you ?
- noo.

10. Do you want someone you can't have ?
- nahhhh. Regretted having someone I cant have, so yupp. Whatever.

11. Have you ever been in love ?
Yupp.

12. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries ?
- uh huh

13. What would you say about your most recent ex ?
- I thought he was the best, but he wasn't. But deep deep down in my heart, I still secretly think he's the best/

14. Does your ex still have feelings for you ?
- noope :D

15. Do you believe in long distance relationships ?
- Nah. Not even a single bit.

16. Do you believe in love at first sight ?
- Hmph. nope.

TRUTHS ABOUT ME ?

Are you Perfect ?

- How smart?

- not very.

Are you Tall ?
- extremely. I taller than yao ming.

Are you short?

- extremely. I'm shorter than Willy Wonka's Ompa Lumpas.

Are you in your pajamas ?
- Yes. Strawberry shortcake somemore siol.

LAST :
Last friend you saw ?

- Yixiang.

Last talked to on the phone ?
- Michelle

Last person to text you ?
- Yixiang. Flooding me with 10msges at one go asking me t wake up and pee at freaking 6 am. Cheebong only.

FAVOURITE :
Number ?
- 7

Colour ?

- White.

Food ?
- Lan Jiao Sai.

Place ?
- IDK manzxzxzc.

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS :
Q : What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up ?
- Called Michelle.

Q : Do you have anything bother you ?
- Money and weight.

Q : What's the last movie you watched in theatres ?
- Babylon AD.

Q : Where is the last place you went ?
- Cine.

Q : Do you smile a lot ?
- ERHHH. idk.

Q : Do you wish upon stars ?

- When you wish upon a star, may ur lanjiao rot and droppp. cause whn u wish upon a star, ur lanjiaooooooo dropppppppp.

Q : Are you a friendly person ?
- IDKKKKK.

Q : Where did you sleep last night ?
- On my smelly bed.

Q : When was the last time you cried ?
- The last time I got a tad drunk.

Q : What was your last thought before going to bed ?
- How t complete that bomberman and not die.

Q : Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great ?
-5? Ups and downs la.

Q : What do you hear right now ?
- erhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. the baby under my block crying.

Q : Does anything hurt you right now ?
- YES. My motherfuucking eyebrow.

Q : What's your favourite month ?
- August.

EMOTIONS
Are you missing someone right now ?
- idk?

Are you tire ?
- kindaaaa.

Are your parents still married ?
- uh huh.

BASICS :
Real name ?
- GANSHUHUI,RAPHAELLE.

Eye Colour ?
- Brown?

Male or Female ?
-SHEMALE.

Crushing ?
-ERH, SECRET.

Hair Colour ?
- Totally black.

Sweats or Jeans ?
- none.

Phone or Camera ?
- PHONE WITH CAMERA. Leh long leh long. Buy 1 get 1 free tgt!

Health Freak ?
- Definitely not.

Righty or Lefty ?
- Righttyyyy.

Smoke or Drink ?
- Both.

FIRST :
First best friend ?
- Cannot even rmb her name, please.

First enemy ?
- Erm, someone in my primary school?

First Vacation ?
- Bankok.

CURRENTLY :
Eating ?
- Pisai.

Drinking ?
- Iced Milo.

Listening to ?
- The man who cant be moved.

Plans for tommorow ?

- At home.

Waiting for ?
- X'mas.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER :
Lips or eyes ?
-EYES!
Shorter or Taller ?
- Fine with anything.

Romantic or Spontaneous ?
- ROMANTIC.

Sensitive or Loud ?
- LOUD.

Hook-up or in a relastionship ?
- Relationship.

HAVE YOU EVER :
Drank hard drinks ?
- "NO"

Lost glasses/contacts ?
- Nope.

Ran away from home ?
- Cannot run :'(

Broken someone's heart ?
- IDK,

Been arrested ?
- Yupp.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Do you like someone ?
- Secret.

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life ?
- Pretty much acceptable.

FIVE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW :
- *Mi ni mo ni mi ni mo catch the spider on the wall. if you catch it mi ni mo ni mi ni mooo.*

Yanbing, Melissa, Michelle, Your mother and your Father.

WAH. CB. This survey took me a thousand years.
Soo longggg.

Babylon ADDDDDDDDDDDick

Oh hi Mr Tan.

Watched Babylon with Yixiang, Michelle and Nat.
Wooo. I love that show! Mr. Disel fucking handsome can?!
And HAWHEEHAW. I spilled cheese on Yixiang, making him stink. HawHEEhaw.

My eyebrow kinda still hurts after Yixiang pushed the piercing. Am I thinking too much or is it swollen?

Oh boyyyy.

I'm so gonna fail my HCT theory test. Awesome.
What's more. Practical test tomorrow and I still couldn't find any model.
I gave up Elizabeth cause my classmates said that we'll have t cut like 5 inches of hair. Fucking siaox. 5 inches leh! My teacher never use her brains when they talk. So I reluctantly went over t the Coffee Aunties t ask if they wanna cut their hair.
HawHEEhaw. Coffee aunty wants t be my model for basic layer.
CONCAVE MODEL COME T ME LEH.
I dont wanna fail.


Cannot take it. I really fat liaoxZx.
knn. 3kg leh. Stupid cheese tofu in school. Made me so fat,


Save me from all the agony of ximpeh.
It hurts.

WHAAAAAAAAAAT THE FUCK?!

I know I asked Yixiang t keep this a secret but..
I've gained 3kg


Knn. Hate school hate school!
Slept like 4plus at night and had t wake up at 6 just t attend 1.30hour of school.
That's damn stupid.


Exam today damn easy.
Meant for ediots who dont know ABC/ 123.


Draining all my very last bit of energy just t tell you ily for the last time,
Like how I managed t just move on, I seriously am still wondering why?
Goodbye.

Sianzatiionx worxZxzXz.

MY BITCH.

Since I thought It'll be so effing bored studying, I've decided t do some survey/quiz t kill some time before heading t the room and flipping thru notes and killing myself mentally. Stole this rather stupid female survey. Wtf.

FEMALE SURVEY: DONT CHICKEN OUT GIRLS!


Does your password have to do with a boy?
Nope. All my passwords t Friendster, Blogger, Nuffnang and everything is 1111111.

Easier t rmb.

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
Well I dont know man. Feelings are just so have t comprehand.

Are you a girly girl?
VERY GIRLY. Omg. What a joke.

Small or big purses?
Big with alot of cash. Small with alot of cash too.

What are the signs you like a guy?
Erhh, erhh.

Do you sleep in your bra?
Yupp, but at times no. HawHEEhaw.

Do you enjoy drama?
Pretty much.

Do you stay friends with your ex's?
Most of them except for one asshole. HawHEEhaw.

Did you dress up on Halloween?
Nope.

Do you call anybody by their last name?
No?

How many guys will read this just because it says "FEMALE SURVEY"?
Stupid. As if I got any clue.

Do you wear makeup?
EVERYDAY. TO SCHOOL, T TOWN, TO ANYWHERE.

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
HAWHEEHAW. NOOO! WAH. IMAGINE HOW UGLY.

Have you ever cooked food for a guy?
MY DAD?

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
BIG TIME. ALWAYS.

Have you ever broken a guy's heart?
HMPH. NOPEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Eyeliner or Mascara?
UBER THICK EYELINER

American Eagle or Hollister?
dONT KNOW.

Heels or flats?
FLATS.

Skirts or jeans?
SKIRT. SEEE. I SO GIRLLY.

Socks or leggings?
LEGGINGS

Heels or sneakers?
HEELS

Straight or curly hair?
STRIAGHT + CURLY
Hoops or dangling earrings?
HOOOOOP HOOOP HOOOOP HOOP.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
SO BADLY. BUT SOMEHOW SURPRISED THAT I MANGED T FORGET HIM SO QUICKLY.

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
DARKK.

Do you have a best friend?
YUPP.

What do you think about the person you like?
ERM. MY HEART IS ALL EMPTY.

Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
YES YES! LIPOSUCTION. BIGGER EYES, SMALLER NOSE.

Do you like your life?
CURRENTLY NO. CAUSE TEST/EXAMS PERIOD.

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
NOPE?

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
NOPE.

Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
YUPP, LIKE OUT OF FUN.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
SO MANY TIMES TILL I GOT SICK OF IT.

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
SO MANY TIMES THAT I THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY



Do you ever wish you were famous?
NAHHH.

IN A BOY:

Cowboy or gangsta?
COWBOY WOULD BE AEWSOME

Preppy or Punk/Goth?
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.

Welleducated or Dropout?
WELL EDUCATED. THE PREVIOUS ONE WAS A DISASTER. OMG

Contacts or Glasses?
GLASSES

Good cook or took you out a lot?
TAKES ME OUT ALOT. GOOD COOK = COOK ALOT = I EAT ALOT= I GAIN ALOT WEIGHT

Funny or Serious?
BOTH. AT APPROPRIATE TIME.

Romantic or Daredevil?
BOTH. AT APPROPRIATE TIME.

Cute or Hot?
CUTEEEEE

Long or short hair?
VERY LONG HAIR. SO CAN USE HIM FOR MY PRACITCAL TEST.

Smoker or nonsmoker?
SMOKER.

SCREW STS

Wall.E with Rachael ystd at Town.



Sudden lost of interest in blogging and I'm gna go study now for the coming tests next week.
I lost my concave model. I need a new concave model.
PLEASE :'(


And I wanna thank lovely Elizabeth ChinYasu!
Thanks and I love you.

TEXT ME

MY MODELS. PLEASE TEXT ME INSTEAD OF WAITING FOR ME T GO ONLINE

CAUSE I AM SELDOM ONLINE!





81171054


TEXT ME ASAP! MY PRACTICAL TEST IS ON WEDNESDAY!!!!

STUDYSTUDYSTUDY

HCT theory test on Monday and I haven flip thru any pages of notes t study. How great.

I think I've lost the ability t blog.



P/S: HAIR CUTTING MODELS TO RECONFIRM!

PLEASE. I NEED HELP. PRACTICAL TEST ON TUES ALREADY. I NEED TO RECONFIRM MY MODELS.

PLEASE ADD ME AT IAINTYOURMOMMA@HOTMAIL.COM OR IF YOU HAVE MY NUMBER, TEXT ME ASAP!!!!!!!

It is not the fear that is holding me back but that guilt that is killing me so badly.

That unknown hatred when I speak love bugs me alot.

& when my heart has never felt so shallow and empty before, I unintentionally realize that I'm so over you.

zzzzzzzzzzzz`

CANT BELIEVE THAT MY EYES ARE FUCKING CLOSING ON ME AT 10.40.

KNN. I'VE TRANSFROMED INTO A PIG.

FUCK U

Thousand and one mosquitos bites are on me.

Mos, you watch out. My baygon waiting for you.

MCCAFE

/ WORKING AT MCCAFE LATER.

WTF.

Awww

I've got pictures that I wanted t upload but am too lazy to do so.



Ystd it was me and my mom's birthday, coincidentally, the both of our birthday falls on the same day. Which I have been celebrating my 1st birthday t the 17th with her & I will never ever feel lonely celebrating alone. HawhEEhaw.


Just wanna thank Shuling, Michelle, Cherry, Meiling and Yixiang for the lovely lovely lovely wallet & I really love it alot. Thanks <3
I wanna thank KelvinYAP for the lovely shirt he gave me, which obviously he doesn't have to cause it is only just a birthday.
Wanna thank Siti, my lovely maid for the slippers.
Wanna thank my dad for the generous amount of effing 24bucks he gave to me in an angpow.
Wanna thank my mom for the really generous amount of effing hundred bucks.
Wanna thank everyone, everyone and everyone.


Pizzahut with Mom and Rachael ystd. Awesome!

Replying tags hereeeeeee.

GIRL: I PIERCED MY EYEBROW AT BUGIS, LEVEL 2. THE SHOP WHO DOES TATTOO AND I PIERCED IT FOR 3O EXCLUSIVE OF STUD.

YASU&VICTORIA: YOU GUYS SERIOUS OR WHAT?! YOU GUYS WILLING TO ALLOW ME TO CUT UR HAIR? BUT MY TEST IS ON THE 10TH AND I'M ONLY GOOD AT BASIC LAYER AND NOT CONCAVE. LETS KEEP OUR FINGERS CROSS THAT MY EXAMS DOESN'T REQUIRES CONCAVE CUTTING!

CHERRY: YOU KIDDING OR WHAT? I LOVED THE PRESENT SO MUCH!!!!!!! THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!! AND I'VE BEEN ATTENDING SCHOOL OFTEN ALR! 5 TIMES A WEEK, NOT ENOUGH? HAWHEEHAW.

YUNNNX&BINGBONG: WELL, THANKS ALOT MAN!!!

PASSERYBY: ERH, I GOT MY EYELINER LIKE A YEAR BACK, COULDN'T RMB WHERE. BUT THE BRAND IS MABELINE(SP), YOU CAN GET IT FROM ANYWHERE, I THINK WATSON AND GUARDIAN. I'M USING THE LIQUID ONE.

HEY: ERH, YOUR BRAINS MUST BE ALITTLE MULFUNCTIONING. IT'S AN EYEBROW PIERCING.

YAYNESS.

Tmr I'll be a year older than today.

HAWHEHAWHEEHAWHEEHAWHEE.

My mom will also be a year older tmr compared to today.

HAWHEEHAWHEEHAWHEEHAW.

LAONIANG WILL BE BACK

OKAY. A RUSHY ONE.
LAONIANG LATE FOR SCHOOL BUT DONT GIVE ANY FUCK CAUSE SCHOOL SUCK ASS.



PICTURES HAVE T WAIT TILL I'M FINALLY FREE. HAWHEEHAW.
CELEBRATED MY BIRTHDAY I ADVANCE YSTD.
THANKS FOR THE PRESENT, DARLING. I LOVEEEE <3


Was persuading Yixiang not t go for LLA lesson today and..




Yixiang: Gimme 5 good reasons why i shouldn't go.
ME: Erhhhhhhhhhh.

1. LLA very sian.
2. Bus jam.
3. Cannot see me.
4. Must wake up early
5. AND TEACHER VERY UGLY.

It is alright that you dont rmb,
but baby.. Happy.. Happyy.. Shucks. Neverm..

OH. BE GONE FATS.

My eyebrow piercing is crazy low.

Whoa whoa whoa.
3 huge servings of rice for the whole day. Omg. Rice = addictive. & surprisingly, I'm still hungry.

Just finished bathing and my eyes are closing.

Mom's big day on Friday. I've got no mooneh t buy her present. Whats more, I dont have any more mooooneh t buy for myself anything. Not even 10cents t go into the tuilet.
29th august, not really some special day.

Does the tears welling up in my eyes make me a weaker person?
My heart is all empty without your presence.

I still get the kicks knowing how pathetic your life is.
HAWHAWHAWHAWHAWHAWHAWHAW.

PLEASE HELP IF CAN HELP CAUSE I NEED HELP

I SERIOUSLY NEED PEOPLE T VOLUNTEER BEING MY LIVE MODEL.

HAIR LENGTH BELOW BREASTS/ SHOULDER LENGTH.

WILL BE EITHER CUTTING BASIC LAYER OR CONCAVE. PLEASE HELP

IF YOU CAN.

I'M PAYING 10BUCKS, Y'KNOW?! LUCKY BITCHES. HAWHEEHAW. I

NEED 2 MODELS OR MORE.

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.

HAISSSSSSSzZxXzXZ

Wanted t upload some pictures of nothing, but as alrd said Nothing. So I'm not gona upload any.



School ended early today cause lessons were cancelled.
Watched Space Chimps after school. Fuck. Kna deceived by the cute chimps, the show suck ass.
I almost fell asleep so as afew who watched tgt.

Went over t AMK t find Shuping, Yanbing and Cherlyn with Yixiang.

My heart is yours to fill or burst.

i guess you chose Burst. Thanks, asshole.

BITCH

I HATE FAT AUNTIES WHO HATES/ PICK ON DOGS.
THEY SHOULD PICK ON SOMEONE THEIR OWN SIZE LIKE SANTA CLAUSE.

FUCKING STUPID CB

OH CRAP.
IT'S 12.28AM RIGHT NOW. LOVE IT THAT MY DAD'S NOT AROUND IN S'PORE. FREEDOM T EVERYTHING, OKAY, ALMOST EVERYTHING.
HAHAHAHAHA


Tonglee's place ystd was rather fun in the end, we played the Blackjack.
Crazy. Michelle told me that when someone gets 15, that someone can change his/her card. So when I got my cards, I was damn happy cause I got 15 but fuck. 7+6= 13 and I counted as 15.
MATHS FAIL.
POWERRR SIOL.


Dyed my hair. Cheebyee. Now I look like ahlian,

HAHAHAHHAHA

MOM: HEE HEE HEEE. SO CUTE!
MOM: I'M TALKING ABOUT THE DOG. NOT YANBING.

HAWHAWHAWHAWHAWHAW.

MY MOM ASSHOLE.

TAGS

CHANGE OF TAGBOARD.

RE -TAG SO I CAN RE-PLY.

HAWHEEHAWHEEHAWHEEHAW.

YAWNSSSS

Am in Tonglee's place right now.
What can I say? Hmm, boring!



Going over t his place is the same like staying at home rotting just that I've got some companion but its just that smth ain't right and I just dont know what. HawHEEhaw


Besides rotting and rotting, I've got nothing t do.
OH!! I HAVE! T PERSPIRE CAUSE IT IS SO MOTHERFUCKING HOTTTTTTTTT.


YAWNSSSSSSSSSS.
I feel extremely weird that there are 2 people beside me right now peeping at what I blog. See!
kna deprive again. Knn.


Uber mixed feelings. Knntheccb.
My heart is all tangled up by all mixed feelings that I do not know what.
Awfully tiring t stress about what I do not know about.
KNNN. I feel like shitting.

Lucky sonS of many bitches.

Today, everyone berrIiI lucky cause I'm gonna upload hell outs of pictures.
Okay la. Lying only la. I'm gonna upload like ZERO so everyone can see my pictures. HawHEEhaw.


Aiyaa. Since slow poke Photobucket is slowingly uploading my pictures, slowly at a very slow pace, I shall slowly make my way t the tuuilet t pee.
I've been holding my bladder for prolly 2 hours. Awesome, I bet I'll pee for like 2 hours also la.

Shall summarize my whole awesome day today.
Woke up and bathe.
RUSHED t school.
Almost fell alseep in class.
Went back home, and jam-ed crazily in bus cause got stupid accident. Fucking stupid reckless drivers. Nabeh, next time I dont wanna drive cause dont wanna be like them. (But actually, I think I too short t step on anything. Step air then got)


Wah. Cannot take so much excitment in a day will get heart attack and I seriously hope that there will not be another wonderful day like today.

For the sake of all my haters, I've decided t resist the beautiful temptation of my sis's bed calling out t me just t blog today.
Its been like a thousand years since I've blog.
HAWHEEHAWHEEEHAWHEEHAW. Nonsense, I just did one in school earlier on.
My com crashed and revived in a very bad way. Shall like Print screen and will upload the picture soon.


Cheeebyeee.
Cramps againnnnn.
Cramps are hor-ri-gi-byee when u have cramps.
Wah. Make sense leh. HAHAHHAHAHA.



Okay la, lucky assholes. Pictures FUCKING finally done.
Shall first start with..





MY FAT AND MAD DOG SAYS HI.




Behold, the Almight StarFucks queen. Everyone worships me. *Arm chio like crazy*





StarFucks day with Yixiang, Michelle and Nat.




Darlie job. Wahhhhh. The Aunty eyes can fly.



Seriously, when I thought I could really become a good hairstylist, Miss Leong and Mr Chua had t bring all my confidence down.

My one and only BOBO. When I thought I'm gonna do real good for this rolling curl thing, I was damn wrong. Fuck.






I bet I was the lousiest that day. Where got people hair look like siao char bo one?!!!!





Okay la. T end this miserable post,
show U all one last picture.





Dont arm chio la. I know you guys were praying t see my one last photo before dying right?!



Sudden heart attack.
Byebye.